Saturday, August 10, 2013

The Meaning of Family

I have been going to this college for six years now I am in my final semester.  I moved out of a family members house for the summer to basically get away from said family member so I could retain my sanity.  Now I have been put into a position where I am required to move back into this house with the my uncle Hogurt I already feel like he & other members of my extended family are judging me by staying at this house.  It has a stipulation that once the fall semester is over I move out permanently.  I have agreed to this.  I plan to be done & put this awful half a decade behind me.  College has made me not only jade against the idea of system of higher education but also of idea of family.  I have lived with my extended family for six years now & the whole situation feels similar to that of when my family lived in Utah.  Out there we were viewed as outsiders because we were not L.D.S.  I am under the impression that I have already been weighed, measured & been found wanting by my extended family that I feel they just want to be rid of me; well let me tell you the feeling is mutual.  Some of my family members have more class & tact then others & it shows in the way they interact with me while others are just downright rude.  I look around some of their homes & I don't see any pictures of my immediate family.  Which leads me to believe that it is not just me but my entire immediate family that my extended family has a problem with.  This experience has made me realize that the only thing I have in common with my extended family is a shared last name & I intend to keep it that way come the new year.

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